So anyway, I would just like to make know the fact that graphic design makes me feel like I'm not an artist. Perhaps I'm not anymore. I've never had any huge artistic revelations. I just like making pretty things. But then again so do old ladies that crotchet dolls. Anyway, I'm looking forward to this summer. Because I'm taking a beginning painting class right now that is really getting me interested in paint as a media. Plus my teacher is really young so its pretty easy to talk to her and she's full of ideas and opinions. Other than that class, I don't really care for this semester. I'm ready for the summer.

I was at some tennis court a week ago (I can't play, I was just watching a tournament) and the weather was really nice and hot and I smelled sunscreen for the first time this year. That is the first sign of summer, sunscreen. Whenever I smell it, I feel like God is saying "It is my will that you to go to the beach, Jane." But then the weather got cold again and all the summer dreams fell out of my head. Ahh, I wanna go! Jacksonville is killing me!

I read Josh's Journal entry about the critique thing and I do agree that it sort of sucks. I'm not really into other online art communities. I would like to have my own website instead. And I'm working on it... Which means, I probably won't finish this year. Or next, to be honest.

That is all.

Its been over a year since I've updated this thing. I'll just give a brief summary of what I've learned since the last entry.

-Art classes suck.
-"Go to college or you'll live in a van down by the river" is bullshit.
-If you are not latino, you will never fully understand latinos.
-Don't speak badly of vodka around russians.
-Language barriers are much, much more than not knowing translations.
-Almost everyone but Muslims will drink at one point in their life.
-Don't expect "best friends" to remain so after you start dating someone (especially "best friends" of the opposite sex).

That isn't every thing I've learned. Just the things that bug me at current. School isn't horrible really, I'm just really ready to end this semester and hibernate for the winter. A little tired of international human politicking, you know.

I've seen quite a few contest that I've wanted to enter on dA, I just haven't had time to do it. The Pinkitude contest sounds cool, and I have a cool idea for it. I just haven't tackled the idea yet. I'll try to finish it over the Thanksgiving Break. If not, c'est la vie, and hakuna matata!

c'est la vie - (french) thats life
hakuna matata - (swahili) no worries

So living away from home is pretty interesting. Someone told me that it would probably be like going to summer camp for a really long time. They were wrong. Dead wrong. Living out of the house away from my parents and local friends and in a new place with new friends, poses choices. There are now so many directions that I can take. Esspecially in the international house. I've met so many types of people. Not just ethnicities and races, but different types of thought. There are so many religions, philosophies and lifestyles crammed into this one 44 occupant house and I'm learning so much. So my mind has greatly expanded in the past month or so. This is a little disturbing at times to see how much I've changed. But to know that its my decision and my life makes me pretty comfortable. I have had a few troubles here, I must admit. But they are all my own fault and haven't set me back too terribly. All in all, I think I'm growing up. The prayers helped a lot, I'm sure. Thanks to all. And most definitely thanks to the one who listened to them.

I'm officially moving to Jacksonville tomorrow. I'm really mega super excited about it. I've never lived on my own before. So maybe this will kick me into the so called "real world" and I will get serious about what I want to do with my life. Up until now it has been obeying my parents and hanging out with friends. Not that theres anything wrong with that. But I never had to worry about money or food because I live at home. But now... it will be interesting and I will probably loose some weight (and freak people out with impressions of corpses coming to life) what with me saving as much money as I can: I want to go back to Spain next summer. I will try my best to do that or some traveling like it. Backpacking through Europe sounds original...

So thoughts and prayers for this next year are greatly appreciated. I'm going to miss Hayden, well, kind of.

So I never did the idea. I'm not really mad at anymore medicines or anything. Actually, I haven't really drawn anything since I got home from Spain. Thats a little sad actually. I have so many tools at my disposal. I'm just going to have to get back into the habit because I love drawing. I just get out of the habit sometimes. Oh well.

I do have a few sketchies that I was going to scan in and work on, but my scanner is on strike at the moment. That seems to be a lot of peoples' problem lately. So I just gave them to Josh friend. They were all for him anyway.

Cool thing: My sister was cleaning out the basement for a yard sale and she found a drawing table that used to be my dad's. He said I could have it. So that is a bit of motivation to draw more. And its kinda cool to have something that your parents had when they were younger.